Our little Logan boy

Logan Jacob!!! Our sweet Little Man, our Buddy, our Mister Log, our Little Boy Blue!!! What a giant of a spirit is this little guy!! I cannot recall a time he gave up on anything!! He will do something over and over and over until he gets it. He keeps us laughing, keeps us on our toes, and keeps our heart-rates up!! He is brave and kind, and eager to learn. At age five weeks when he had what doctors called, "a severe case of colic", I bonded with that little screamer. He put me over the edge of sanity, gave me anxiety, and made my heart ache for his little self. The rest was history!! No little boy on the planet earth could bring as much joy to two parents. He is so sweet to always tell us out of the blue that he loves us and that "I always wanted a mommy like you!!". He likes to smell my hair and has recently been stealing my pillows so he can smell my hair while he goes to sleep. As a baby he used to gently pull on, and twist my hair while he had his bottle at bedtime.

I love this little boys hands!! As an infant and young toddler, he would put both his hands on my cheeks, and hold them there. Or one hand on my cheek while he drank his bottle. When he was one and half he burned his hands. It was so sad and so sweet that he would put his two big wrapped up balls that were his hands, on my cheeks, just like always. I shed many a tear over missing those little hands during that time. But they were back eventually!! He still does the same thing now. The intensity of his "cheek hold" is to the tenth degree of what it used to be--but it is still just as sweet because it is so heart-felt.

Darin and I each have a song that is "our Logan song". For me it is "God Speed", a lullaby to a little boy. The first time I heard it I knew it was all about me and my little boy. And for Darin it is "Beautiful Boy" Logan knows that it is "his song" and loves to listen to it over and over and over.

"Close your eyes. Have no fear. The monsters gone, he's on the run and your daddy's here. Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful boy. Before you go to sleep, say a little prayer. Every day in every way, it's getting better and better. Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful boy. Out on the ocean, sailing away. I can hardly wait, to see you to come of age. But I guess we'll both just have to be patient. Yes it's a long way to go. A hard row to hoe. Yes, it's along way to go, but in the meantime...Before you cross the street, take my hand. Life is just what happens to you while you're busy making other plans. Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful boy. Darling, darling, darling Logan."

"Dragon Tales and the "water is wide". Pirate's sail and lost boys fly. Fish bite moonbeams every night, and I love you. Godspeed, little man. Sweet dreams, little man. Oh my love will fly to you each night on angels wings. Godspeed. Sweet dreams. The rocket racer's all tuckered out. Superman's in pajamas on the couch. Goodnight moon, we'll find the mouse. And I love you. Godspeed, little man. Sweet dreams, little man. Oh my love will fly to you each night on angels wings. Godspeed. Sweet dreams. God bless mommy and match box cars. God bless dad and thanks for the stars. God hears "amen" wherever we are, and I love you. Godspeed, little man. Sweet dreams, little man. Oh my love will fly to you each night on angels wings. Godspeed. Godspeed. Godspeed. Sweet dreams"

We love you with every bit of our souls, Logan!!!! Always have, always will. No matter what. You are the little boy we needed, waited for and LOVE!!!! Godspeed, beautiful boy!!!